Where we are now as a church, when love grows cold or when the spotlight shifts or attention shift!!

When love was the culture

-Many good things were done by the servants of God upon my love. they thought me love.....real love, worth, too much support and acceptance.

-I feel like I had direction in Joburg and my adult life because of the them.

-The love and support has been very very good and tangible.

Tangible lessons and experiences of love

-Servants of the Lord thought me the Word of God literally breastfed me the Word.

-Ngoba ndilusana oluphaphayo I was trusted early to share the good news noba ndiyabhuda I was encouraged to share the Word and not be passive but ndibhude ndisiya ngakhona.

-When were fell no Bruce bembona eyimpisi my parents covered me because I was through so much trauma.

-Ma would listen to my breakup's and give me advice on why men were scared of me.

-When it was my Lobola Pa was so so so proud, he was the Chief negotiator and I remember he borrowed R10k.

-My wedding was done by the church after I went through a horrible sabotage from home from my Lobola day to the wedding day.

- I was pregnant and my then husband walked away from me and left me with a huge debt, I remember Pa and Ma built rooms emNdeni so that I could move in noFefe uAnti azogada ingane.

-Nhla and Sandisiwe gave me lots of Tax and Accounting business no Amanda

-Wherever I moved in my career my Pa no Freddie would accompany me ngeTruck. Ngicele ukuthuthelwa ngesikweleti.

-Pa was supportive of my tutorial business.

-Ma borrowed me her corrolla for a month being an amateaur driver.

-When I was still looking for a job without medical aid, I would walk to Naledi clinic, Ma would help so that I do not get fired from work.

-Ma thought me how to be a mother to Fefe.

-When Fefe was born Ma and Pa came to Sundown village to pray and they gave Fefe R250.

-Pa wrote a wishing card for Fefe with a beautiful message.

-Pa and Ma always wanted fellowship and breaking of Bread.

-When I was pregnant Pa would take to Durban to ABC to hear the Word. He would give me the double bed with an ensuite bathroom yena alale kwi 3 quarter no Ps Manganyi.

-My Pastors they thought me to pray and be an intercessor.

-Pa no Ma would visit me at Suncity and he would have this big announcement about me working at the Palace Hotel.

-Pa discovered that I am a teacher.

-When Fefe almost died Pa was even concerned if my Nanny washed my bottles and it turned out she did not wash them.

-Because of the experience in Finance Pa testified about my experience and I was accepted at SAIPA.

-Pa tried to intervene ku Bruce and fought his case but the thief was gone but Pa's love intimidated and scared Bruce.

-When I could not qualify for a flat deposit Pa was stressed........he wanted to raise that money himself.

- When I had tyre problems kwitazz he would send Bhut Thami and Fhatu to fix my car.

- When my car broke itazz he would fix it eSiphiwe village. In fact he talked Nhla to selling me that car.

-When I was abused in marriage he encouraged me to divorce.

-When I was suicidal disowned by my mother again when I was in maternity, I was writing Honours and Nhla baby sat for me and Gog' Sonto. Ma picked me up at Westgate and Nhla dropped me at Unisa.

-Pa & Ma took me out on my Grad.

- Sis Angie was there, really there for me and Koni.

-When I bought my first property Pa was so happy, even when people were stealing our property Pa was already alert.

-When I was writing MCompt Accounting CTA Man Acc test beno Nhla they would print for me estudy and scan for me!!

-When I corrected them they would listen.

-Sis Nozizwe did a nice lunch box for me while I was pregnant.

-Church used to be my safe space where I could be vulnerable, get prayers, I could have died or became an addict with my family rejection, hear God speak and get healed instantly.

-Very humble, humble servants of God.

-When I was depressed nge Covid I was transparent to Ma and we fellowshipped throughout Covid and depression was at bay.

-When ndivula uRonta Bhut Thami drove down no Osinda and they made my Rondavel a home.

-He encouraged me to date.

- Pa and Freddie pushed my tazz on his Grad when I was stuck in Ontdekkers.

-Mbu and Ma bought Fefe lots of clothes when she turned 2.

-My parents thought me the value of relationships.

-The value of breaking bread.

-He encouraged us to love one another and be there for each other.

-Pa modelled the love and the truth. He care, protected and owned up.

-For all the jobs I had they prayed for me, they would send Words of encouragement, prayers.

-They thought me how to preach the good news.

-My orphanhood ended and pyscho-social support started

-They thought me support, commitment and balanced life.

-They thought me community engagement.

-My parents were generous in teaching us the Word.

-They thought me how to give.

-From Revival, ABC and Apostle, open heaven etc.

-We would have teas noMama at Mugg and Bean. How I missed that. I am looking forward those when the timing is right and there is peace in our conversation and vulnerability from both sides.

-Ma supported my education kakhulu.

-Pa and Ma thought me how to be a woman.

-Ma bought me a big bag of clothes 2021 when Zuma was burning the country.

-I was asked to share when Pa passed on.

-They believed in me so much even when I had Covid and depression the support was there.

-They connected me with the bigger world.

- Were there when I was abused by family

MY SERVICE AS A SON - 15 years

-I served in finance after the late Lembete till Jan 2023, not complaining about promotion

-I took my position very seriously

-Served as an intercessor sihambe siyokhuleka eCarltonville endured uJada ne abuse yakhe

-Gave tithes, offering and pledges

-Sacrificed weekends to teach Accounting to students

-Thought the Word whenever asked to even if I am flat broke, even if it is last minute.

-Banked umnikelo consistently.

-Protected the fields when there was theft and rading.

-Served ngamaConferences without complaints even if there was not a even a bunch of flowers to thank me.

-Gave towards church events

-Made notes for abazalwane after speakers

-Brought saints to come and fellowship and become sons

-Supported Ma when she was excluded in leadership and decision making

-Forgave when I was attacked

-Dumped guys who competed with my ministry affection..

-Protected Ma when she was abused financially and emotionally.

- I would go to clearwater and Maponya without Petrol nor being paid but to serve the Lord. Take half days from work and leave or dodge just to serve. Drive in high speed.

-Attended sons weddings, launches, losses, life promotions

-Dedicated my youth to the service of the Lord and served in Young adults

-Led whatsapp group prayers 2020

-Relegated and eventually cut from sharing about offering 2022 until 2023

-Interceded for saints and the Pastors when they were facing touch times, divorces, addiction and death.

-Blessed sons when they were getting married and burying their loved ones.

-Involved in strategy and corporate governance of the church

-Prayed for the church and supported any and every activity by the Church

-Took leave to bury Pa and Mbu

-Gave resources when sons needed them

-Protected Pa, Ma and kids from iintlebo and belittling attacks with my life

-Drove Ma around for conferences

-Supported any vision and objectives of growth

-Patient when being sidelined multiple times with or without apology

-Patient when ignored and deemed irrelevant at times

-Patient when demoted without notice

-Served faithfully ngomshayo with spreadsheets

-Gave beyond what I could offer

-Forgave when cut off from serving during big services live during service, ignored that and served faithfully

-Still dragged my feet to church even when my car was stolen. Understood when I felt not supported because there was a big conference, I still continued

-Loved Bretheren

-Ignored when I did goodness but was ignored

-Still preached even ndandihletyiwe, people bakubheke nje without amen

-Served faithfully even if relegated to being an MC and forgotten from the event photo's

-Still showed up even if there was no position to serve under. When all positions for me to shine were stripped.

-Served faithfully even if I was bullied by some sons

-Drive all the way from Vaal and Rustenburg just to attend church service no matter the petrol

-Borrow from friends money for petrol just to come to church or church leadership meetings

-Gotten bursaries for sons and secured interviews for sons

-Mentored the Youth

-Respected sons fallen state and never took advantage or throw stones

-Spoke to sons in higher places for sons

-Understood and supported events when other sons were promoted as Pastors and I was still sidelined, ignored and not found worth for reasons not known to me.

-Continued serving faithfully

- Did birthdays for sons expecting nothing in return. Ndiserver uBawo.

-Gave my address to sons for progress of their own sons

-Miss Presleys wedding Sunday ngendaba yomshayo voluntarily so

-Tshudisa ebhankini pushing through eLusikisiki to make sure that the servant of the Lord is paid

- Gave lifts koo Randzo, MC'd betshata in the midst of a very tight schedule. Used to deliver yena nabantakhe besahlala eLokshini

- Defended uMama ebhulishwa engarholi kuthwa akaperfomi

- Shared SAIPA details with some other Bretheren and they qualified

- Imparted Grace on heavily addicted sons and they were delivered

- Did intercessory groups for sons when they got married, when sons were sick