STANDING MY GROUND IN BATTLE : OBSTACLE 01 IN OUR RELATIONSHIP - 31/08/2023

Judges 6 v 34 Then the Spirit of the Lord came on Gideon, and he blew a trumpet, summoning the Abiezrites to follow him.

- It was in the Library that I remembered that I asked the Lord for the husband he knows that I need. It was close to 8pm that I decided God cannot lie. Let everyman be a liar but God. He meant what he said pray for what you want to see in Z. Then I decided on a 2 week fast to fight back the principalities and demons of the Magazi region. I am a resilient warrior. Let's see who will win. This was after I called again for the last time and I sent the last whatsapp. Early in the morning, Jerub-Baal (that is, Gideon) and all his men camped at the spring of Harod. The camp of Midian was north of them in the valley near the hill of Moreh.2 The Lord said to Gideon, “You have too many men. I cannot deliver Midian into their hands, or Israel would boast against me, ‘My own strength has saved me.’

- The violent take it by force.—The Greek noun is without the article, “men who are violent or use force.” The meaning is determined by the preceding clause. The “violent” are men of eager, impetuous zeal, who grasp the kingdom of heaven—i.e., its peace, and pardon, and blessedness—with as much eagerness as men would snatch and carry off as their own the spoil of a conquered city. Their new life is, in the prophet’s language, “given them as a prey” (Jeremiah 21:9; Jeremiah 45:5). There is no thought of hostile purpose in the words. 3 Now announce to the army, ‘Anyone who trembles with fear may turn back and leave Mount Gilead.’” So twenty-two thousand men left 68%, while ten thousand remained 32%.

“A sword for the Lord and for Gideon!”21 While each man held his position around the camp, all the Midianites ran, crying out as they fled. Ngifuna ukuyibona live lena kule relationship.

A PRAYER FOR A LEGITIMATE SIGN THAT ZIZAMELE IS STILL IN LOVE WITH ME, COMMITTED TO OUR RELATIONSHIP AND HE WANTS US TO CONTINUE TO BE LIFELONG PARTNERS. I DON'T KNOW LORD BUT A SIGN EVEN IF IT IS COMMUNICATION OR AN AFFIRMATION ON HIS SIDE

I WILL STAND MY GROUND

19 Gideon and the hundred men with him reached the edge of the camp at the beginning of the middle watch, just after they had changed the guard. They blew their trumpets and broke the jars that were in their hands.20 The three companies blew the trumpets and smashed the jars. Grasping the torches in their left hands and holding in their right hands the trumpets they were to blow, they shouted, “A sword for the Lord and for Gideon!”21 While each man held his position around the camp, all the Midianites ran, crying out as they fled.

22 Then God remembered Rachel; he listened to her and enabled her to conceive.23 She became pregnant and gave birth to a son and said, “God has taken away my disgrace.”24 She named him Joseph,[h] and said, “May the Lord add to me another son.”

James 1:6-8 New International Version (NIV)But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.

I ASK FOR TOTAL LOVE THAT FORGIVES, THAT HAS MERCY, KINDNESS AND CONTINUALLY GROWS, FOR BOTH OF US TO BE COMMITTED TO THE RELATIONSHIP AND PROGRESS STEADILY TO MARRIAGE AND LIFE LONG PARTNERSHIP WHERE EVEN DEATH CANNOT SEPARATE US. - CRAZY BUT I WILL SHOOT MY SHOT IN FAITH. LORD I AM PRAYING FOR Z TO BE MY LOVING COMMITTED AND CONSISTENT LOVING HUSBAND WITHOUT US BREAKING UP - 01/09/2023. YOU MIGHT HAVE GIVEN ME EVERYTHING LORD BUT I PRAY YOU BLESS WITH A LOVING HUSBAND FROM Z.

8 One day Elisha went on to Shunem, where a wealthy woman lived, who urged him to eat some food. So whenever he passed that way, he would turn in there to eat food. 9 And she said to her husband, “Behold now, I know that this is a holy man of God who is continually passing our way. 10 Let us make a small room on the roof with walls and put there for him a bed, a table, a chair, and a lamp, so that whenever he comes to us, he can go in there.”

11 One day he came there, and he turned into the chamber and rested there. 12 And he said to Gehazi his servant, “Call this Shunammite.” When he had called her, she stood before him. 13 And he said to him, “Say now to her, ‘See, you have taken all this trouble for us; what is to be done for you? Would you have a word spoken on your behalf to the king or to the commander of the army?’” She answered, “I dwell among my own people.” 14 And he said, “What then is to be done for her?” Gehazi answered, “Well, she has no son, and her husband is old.” 15 He said, “Call her.” And when he had called her, she stood in the doorway. 16 And he said, “At this season, about this time next year, you shall embrace a son.” And she said, “No, my lord, O man of God; do not lie to your servant.” 17 But the woman conceived, and she bore a son about that time the following spring, as Elisha had said to her.

18 When the child had grown, he went out one day to his father among the reapers.19 And he said to his father, “Oh, my head, my head!” The father said to his servant, “Carry him to his mother.”20 And when he had lifted him and brought him to his mother, the child sat on her lap till noon, and then he died.

27 And when she came to the mountain to the man of God, she caught hold of his feet. And Gehazi came to push her away. But the man of God said, “Leave her alone, for she is in bitter distress, and the Lord has hidden it from me and has not told me.”31 Gehazi went on ahead and laid the staff on the face of the child, but there was no sound or sign of life. Therefore he returned to meet him and told him, “The child has not awakened.”32 When Elisha came into the house, he saw the child lying dead on his bed.33 So he went in and shut the door behind the two of them and prayed to the Lord,

I WILL NOT SUBOTAGE MYSELF OR GIVE UP ON MYSELF OR LIFE WHILST I AM WAITING ON ANSWER MY PRAYERS - HAPPINESS IS FREE

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus” (Philippians 6-7, NKJV).

CONSISTENCY

34 Then he went up and lay on the child, putting his mouth on his mouth, his eyes on his eyes, and his hands on his hands. And as he stretched himself upon him, the flesh of the child became warm.

35 Then he got up again and walked once back and forth in the house, and went up and stretched himself upon him. The child sneezed seven times, and the child opened his eyes.

36 Then he summoned Gehazi and said, “Call this Shunammite.” So he called her. And when she came to him, he said, “Pick up your son.”37 She came and fell at his feet, bowing to the ground. Then she picked up her son and went out.

WHEN I RETURN HIM DON'T REJECT HIM - UZE UNDINCEDE BAWO.

PRAYER FOR FORGIVESS - 01/09/2023

1 Corinthians 13 V 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

* I pray Father Lord that we do not dishonor each other BUT outdo each other in honor

* I pray we do not seek individual ways by a united way of doing something

* I pray that I forgive and LORD I ASK FOR HIS FORGIVENESS

PRAYER TO EXPERIENCE THIS SUPREME LIFELONG LOVE FROM ZIZAMELE AND LIFELONG RESPECT TO GIVE HIM - 01/09/2023

Ephesians 5 v 25 Husbands (Zizamele), love (Phathiswa) your wives, just as Christ loved the church (Phathiswa) and gave himself up for her (Phathiswa)z, 28 In this same way, Zizamele ought to love Phathiswa as his own body. Zizamele who loves his Phathiswa loves himself.

After all, no one ever hated their own body (SUPPORT AND BELIEVE IN HIS BUSINESS VENTURES), but they feed and care for their body, just as Christ does the church. 31 “For this reason Zizamele will leave his father and mother and be united to his Phathiswa, and the two will become one flesh.”

33 However, Zizamele must love Phathiswa as he loves himself, and Phathiswa must respect Zizamele.

And even though he loved Hannah very much he would give her only one share, because the LORD had kept her from having children.

19 Laban said, “It’s better that I give her to you than to some other man. Stay here with me.”20 So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her.

PRAYER FOR US TO UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER - 01/09/2023

In the same way, Zizamele must give honor to your Phathiswa. Treat Phathiswa with understanding as you live together. Phathiswa may be weaker than you are, but she is your equal partner in God's gift of new life. Treat Phathiswa as you should so your prayers will not be hindered.

PRAYER FOR ZIZAMELE TO REJOICE IN ME FOR A LIFETIME WITHOUT ME LOOKING FOR HIS ATTENTION AND BEING SCARED OF HIM - 02/09/2023

Proverbs 5:18-20 Your spring water is for you and you only, not to be passed around among strangers. Bless your fresh-flowing fountain! Enjoy the wife you married as a young man! Lovely as an angel, beautiful as a rose— don’t ever quit taking delight in her body. Never take her love for granted! Why would you trade enduring intimacies for cheap thrills with a prostitute? for dalliance with a promiscuous stranger?

Solomon and His Bride Delight in Each Other

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4 You are beautiful as Tirzah, my love, lovely as Jerusalem, awesome as an army with banners.

PRAYER FOR HIM TO RETURN TO OUR LOVE WHILE I AM STILL INTERESTED - 02/09/2023

I DONT WANT MY HEART TO BE HARDENED

15-16 Do you know the saying, “Drink from your own rain barrel,

draw water from your own spring-fed well”?

It’s true. Otherwise, you may one day come home

and find your barrel empty and your well polluted.

PRAYER FOR ZIZAMELE TO ENJOY MY BODY - 02/09/2023

6 How beautiful and pleasant you are,

O loved one, with all your delights![a]

8 I say I will climb the palm tree

and lay hold of its fruit.

Oh may your breasts be like clusters of the vine,

and the scent of your breath like apples,

9 and your mouth[b] like the best wine.

It goes down smoothly for my beloved, gliding over lips and teeth.[c]

10 I am my beloved's, and his desire is for me.

PRAYER FOR TO ENJOY ME SEXUALLY AND FOR ME NOT TO HOLD BACK- 02/09/2023

5 I came to my garden, my sister, my bride,

I gathered my myrrh with my spice,

I ate my honeycomb with my honey,

I drank my wine with my milk.

12 A garden locked is my sister, my bride,

a spring locked, a fountain sealed.

13 Your shoots are an orchard of pomegranates

with all choicest fruits,

henna with nard,

Let my beloved come to his garden,

and eat its choicest fruits.

PRAYER FOR ME UKUBA NDIXOLE NDIPHINDE NDIMTHANDE UZ WHEN HE RETURNS WITH A REPENTED HEART AND A CHANGED SPIRIT - 02/09/2023

There I will give you my love.

13 The mandrakes give forth fragrance,

and beside our doors are all choice fruits,

new as well as old,

which I have laid up for you, O my beloved.

FOR ZIZAMELE TO NEED ME AND ME ONLY AS HIS CHOSEN PARTNER & WIFE NOT ANY OTHER WOMAN- 02/09/2023

2 My beloved has gone down to his garden

to the beds of spices,

to graze[a] in the gardens

and to gather lilies.

3 I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine;

he grazes among the lilies.

9 You have captivated my heart, my sister, my bride;

you have captivated my heart with one glance of your eyes,

with one jewel of your necklace.

10 How beautiful is your love, my sister, my bride!

How much better is your love than wine,

and the fragrance of your oils than any spice!

7 You are altogether beautiful, my love;

there is no flaw in you.

8 Come with me from Lebanon, my bride;

come with me from Lebanon.

PRAYER FOR US TO COME OUT OF THIS PIT AND FOR US TO FORGIVE EACH OTHER. TO BE MERCIFUL, TO APOLOGISE, TO REPENT AND TO BE FAIR

6 I opened to my beloved,

but my beloved had turned and gone.

My soul failed me when he spoke.

I sought him, but found him not;

I called him, but he gave no answer.

8 I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem,

if you find my beloved,

that you tell him

I am sick with love.

PRAYER FOR ME TO BE PATIENT AND NOT GIVE UP ON US AND PRSUE HIM IN PRAYER AND NOT LET GO - 02/09/2023

3 On my bed by night

I sought him whom my soul loves;

I sought him, but found him not.

2 I will rise now and go about the city,

in the streets and in the squares;

I will seek him whom my soul loves.

I sought him, but found him not.

3 The watchmen found me

as they went about in the city.

“Have you seen him whom my soul loves?”

4 Scarcely had I passed them

when I found him whom my soul loves.

I held him, and would not let him go

until I had brought him into my mother's house,

and into the chamber of her who conceived me.

5 I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem,

by the gazelles or the does of the field,

that you not stir up or awaken love

until it pleases.

I am not scared of this battle at all

1. Prayer for his excitement, eagerness and interest to return

2. The return of the Spirit of friendship

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2 My beloved has gone down to his garden to the beds of spices, to graze[a] in the gardens and to gather lilies. 3 I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine; he grazes among the lilies.

3. Lifetime of commitment

9 My dove, my perfect one, is the only one, the only one of her mother, pure to her who bore her. The young women saw her and called her blessed; the queens and concubines also, and they praised her.

10 “Who is this who looks down like the dawn, beautiful as the moon, bright as the sun, awesome as an army with banners?”

4. For Z to chase me and him give me the love and attention I deserve

I slept, but my heart was awake.

A sound! My beloved is knocking.

“Open to me, my sister, my love,

my dove, my perfect one,

for my head is wet with dew,

my locks with the drops of the night.”

5. Spirit of invasion in our relationship by business forces and many external forces

Judges 6 v 3 Whenever the Israelites planted their crops, the Midianites, Amalekites and other eastern peoples invaded the country.4 They camped on the land and ruined the crops all the way to Gaza and did not spare a living thing for Israel, neither sheep nor cattle nor donkeys.5 They came up with their livestock and their tents like swarms of locusts. It was impossible to count them or their camels; they invaded the land to ravage it.6 Midian so impoverished the Israelites that they cried out to the Lord for help.

6. The strong Spirit to know that in this relationship and our future marriage I am a strong resilient mighty warrior

11 The angel of the Lord came and sat down under the oak in Ophrah that belonged to Joash the Abiezrite, where his son Gideon was threshing wheat in a winepress to keep it from the Midianites. 12 When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon, he said, “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior.”13 “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all his wonders that our ancestors told us about when they said, ‘Did not the Lord bring us up out of Egypt?’ But now the Lord has abandoned us and given us into the hand of Midian.”14 The Lord turned to him and said, “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?”

15 “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.”16 The Lord answered, “I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites, leaving none alive.”

7. Destroying the alters aguqa kuzo uZ nabantu bakwaMagazi

25 That same night the Lord said to him, “Take the second bull from your father’s herd, the one seven years old.[b] Tear down your father’s altar to Baal and cut down the Asherah pole[c] beside it.26 Then build a proper kind of[d] altar to the Lord your God on the top of this height. Using the wood of the Asherah pole that you cut down, offer the second[e] bull as a burnt offering.”27 So Gideon took ten of his servants and did as the Lord told him. But because he was afraid of his family and the townspeople, he did it at night rather than in the daytime.29 They asked each other, “Who did this?”When they carefully investigated, they were told, “Gideon son of Joash did it.”30 The people of the town demanded of Joash, “Bring out your son. He must die, because he has broken down Baal’s altar and cut down the Asherah pole beside it.”31 But Joash replied to the hostile crowd around him, “Are you going to plead Baal’s cause? Are you trying to save him? Whoever fights for him shall be put to death by morning! If Baal really is a god, he can defend himself when someone breaks down his altar.”32 So because Gideon broke down Baal’s altar, they gave him the name Jerub-Baal[f] that day, saying, “Let Baal contend with him.”

8. Destroying all the joint forces against our relationship be it distance, baby mama, new girlfriend, ancestoral worship, business, family, hearsay and sisters

33 Now all the Midianites, Amalekites and other eastern peoples joined forces and crossed over the Jordan and camped in the Valley of Jezreel.

9. God will save this relationship and none of us. Kuyobamnandi kubengathi azange saxabana. I see ngitatanyiswa ngiphathwa njengeqanda nengane yam ngu Z sendingenadaba. He will do the calls and the up and down in JHB consistently.

Judges 7 v 2 The Lord said to Gideon, “You have too many men. I cannot deliver Midian into their hands, or Israel would boast against me, ‘My own strength has saved me.’3 Now announce to the army, ‘Anyone who trembles with fear may turn back and leave Mount Gilead.’” So twenty-two thousand men left, while ten thousand remained.

10. Zizamele is my husband and mine only. He has been given into my hands

Now the camp of Midian lay below him in the valley. 9 During that night the Lord said to Gideon, “Get up, go down against the camp, because I am going to give it into your hands. 10 If you are afraid to attack, go down to the camp with your servant Purah 11 and listen to what they are saying. Afterward, you will be encouraged to attack the camp.” So he and Purah his servant went down to the outposts of the camp. 12 The Midianites, the Amalekites and all the other eastern peoples had settled in the valley, thick as locusts. Their camels could no more be counted than the sand on the seashore.13 Gideon arrived just as a man was telling a friend his dream. “I had a dream,” he was saying. “A round loaf of barley bread came tumbling into the Midianite camp. It struck the tent with such force that the tent overturned and collapsed.”14 His friend responded, “This can be nothing other than the sword of Gideon son of Joash, the Israelite. God has given the Midianites and the whole camp into his hands.”15 When Gideon heard the dream and its interpretation, he bowed down and worshiped. He returned to the camp of Israel and called out, “Get up! The Lord has given the Midianite camp into your hands.” 16 Dividing the three hundred men into three companies, he placed trumpets and empty jars in the hands of all of them, with torches inside.

TARGET BY THE 23 - 25/09/2023 I will be with this man and be full of repentance, pursuit and love!! Sihappy

11 One day I will hear the full truth from yena kwa Z lo of the principalities zibulalana

22 When the three hundred trumpets sounded, the Lord caused the men throughout the camp to turn on each other with their swords. The army fled to Beth Shittah toward Zererah as far as the border of Abel Meholah near Tabbath.23 Israelites from Naphtali, Asher and all Manasseh were called out, and they pursued the Midianites.24 Gideon sent messengers throughout the hill country of Ephraim, saying, “Come down against the Midianites and seize the waters of the Jordan ahead of them as far as Beth Barah.”25 They also captured two of the Midianite leaders, Oreb and Zeeb. They killed Oreb at the rock of Oreb, and Zeeb at the winepress of Zeeb. They pursued the Midianites and brought the heads of Oreb and Zeeb to Gideon, who was by the Jordan.

12 To keep the pursuit despite the discouragement, exhaustion and the pain

8 Now the Ephraimites asked Gideon, “Why have you treated us like this? Why didn’t you call us when you went to fight Midian?” And they challenged him vigorously.4 Gideon and his three hundred men, exhausted yet keeping up the pursuit, came to the Jordan and crossed it.5 He said to the men of Sukkoth, “Give my troops some bread; they are worn out, and I am still pursuing Zebah and Zalmunna, the kings of Midian.”

8 From there he went up to Peniel[a] and made the same request of them, but they answered as the men of Sukkoth had.9 So he said to the men of Peniel, “When I return in triumph, I will tear down this tower.”

13 I will test the Lord in this and see if

10 Now Zebah and Zalmunna were in Karkor with a force of about fifteen thousand men, all that were left of the armies of the eastern peoples; a hundred and twenty thousand swordsmen had fallen. 11 Gideon went up by the route of the nomads east of Nobah and Jogbehah and attacked the unsuspecting army. 12 Zebah and Zalmunna, the two kings of Midian, fled, but he pursued them and captured them, routing their entire army.13 Gideon son of Joash then returned from the battle by the Pass of Heres. 14 He caught a young man of Sukkoth and questioned him, and the young man wrote down for him the names of the seventy-seven officials of Sukkoth, the elders of the town. 15 Then Gideon came and said to the men of Sukkoth, “Here are Zebah and Zalmunna, about whom you taunted me by saying, ‘Do you already have the hands of Zebah and Zalmunna in your possession? Why should we give bread to your exhausted men?’” 16 He took the elders of the town and taught the men of Sukkoth a lesson by punishing them with desert thorns and briers. 17 He also pulled down the tower of Peniel and killed the men of the town. 18 Then he asked Zebah and Zalmunna, “What kind of men did you kill at Tabor?”“Men like you,” they answered, “each one with the bearing of a prince.”21 Zebah and Zalmunna said, “Come, do it yourself. ‘As is the man, so is his strength.’” So Gideon stepped forward and killed them, and took the ornaments off their camels’ necks.

14 WHAT ZIZAMELE WILL SAY AS A SIGN OF HIS REPETANCE AND SURRENDER

22 The Israelites said to Gideon, “Rule over us—you, your son and your grandson—because you have saved us from the hand of Midian.”23 But Gideon told them, “I will not rule over you, nor will my son rule over you. The Lord will rule over you.” 24 And he said, “I do have one request, that each of you give me an earring from your share of the plunder.” (It was the custom of the Ishmaelites to wear gold earrings.)28 Thus Midian was subdued before the Israelites and did not raise its head again. During Gideon’s lifetime, the land had peace forty years.

CRAZIEST VISION I HAVE ABOUT US no ZIZAMELE - IT IS NOT FAITH IF IT IS NOT CRAZY NEH. I PRAYED FOR THE HUSBAND THE LORD KNOWS I NEED.

US GOD WILLING (MAGAZI FAMILY)

ONLINE COUPLES COUNSELLING

He will learn Christ in the process.

Right now I am in control and productive

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I have a control on this from the back end...... he might have control from the front

Fasting Day for the miscarriage in our relationship at 6,5 months

01/09/2023 - Standing my ground. Still confused, emotional wreck, calling all friends, intercessors and collecting scriptures, still using my strength.

02/09/2023 - Little strength in the Spirit but not as emotional, still getting advises and intervention. 13h45 I get robust strength to pray and pour out my heart to God.

Spirit of gaps when pressure hits

Stop seeking Zizamele but seek God

Fight my battle Lord. Fight Zizamele's internal battles

I am agreeing with God 100%. Say good things or nothing at all, the enemy will flee!!

The Lord will restore our relationship with Z

Even this attack will work for God's good. We will be a couple with a testimony

Lord restore our weekend on the September 24, 2023

Pray for restoration daily

I must respect the Word of God when it says that Zizamele loves me I must give him time but he loves me more than life itself

See a relationship counsellor

He can do impossible things

Love him in a way that God loves him. Ask for supernatural love and respect towards him.

Pray for him to draw closer to God and minister to him in the Spirit

Don't do things to turn him away like attack him or shout at him

Don't speak bad about him in his moment of failure

Pause for a minute it is not as bad as you think. If you rush in you will end up solving many problems than the initial one.

Watch out for emotional disconnect. Be wise and do not do things that will further drive him away!!

Put my heart in God, not the relationship but God (Khadzi ungangeni ngentliziyo ephelele)

MY HEART IS IN JESUS CHRIST!!

MAN EVENTUALLY GIVE IN TO COUNSELLING!!

THE CHILDHOOD TRAUMAS AND BATTLES!!

WE ARE ALL MESSED UP OUR KIDS TO WHAT WE EXPOSE THEM TO DO!!

THERE ARE PREVAILING INTERNAL BATTLES WITH Z SUCH AS I DO NOT MATTER, I AM INSIGNIFICANT, MAN OF THE HOUSE.

COUNSELLING IS A RIGHT PLACE TO START AND TALKING TO A SELECT FEW THAT CARE

YOU ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE A DIFFERENT SPIRIT AND REFUSE BREAK UP

DO NOT FIGHT THIS ALONE FIND A PARTNER TO STAND WITH YOU

Fight the interruption sometimes it can busyness in business ocherstrating emotional disconnect

Find out why Zizamele is hurting and why he put a wall up so high

Deal with acceptance back and being intimate again

Pray against the Spirit of being busy, career, tiredness and selfish

Pray against the spirit of seduction, withdrawal, lost focus, perfect excuse

Pray against the spirit of lies and denials

Pray against the spirit of adultery, financial crisis and abortion

Don't stress God exposes what happens in darkness into pure light

Go back to God

Time and goodness crumbles because of one bad decision

Talk to Z and reconcile (even if it is against me) and be aware he might be blinded to what he is loosing and he might be enjoying the space finally and continuity

The Holy Spirit is real

Pray against spirit of suicide

Overcome evil with good. Pour to him ngezi statuses and medical appointments. Do not be so overcome with evil. Do not be unfaithful too

Intercede for Z and the spirits possessing us

Use the eyes of faith

Let Z come to God and me later

Fight the words of the Grass is greener on the other side of the fence

Forgive and forget Z sins

His healing is a process not once off

See the sincerity and repatance and allow the healing process with a counsellor

There must be confession of sins

They are all prodigal sons

Jesus Christ will heal us completely in love and trust

He will turn my ashes to beauty. The God the impossible

I cancel the Spirit of pressure ku Z, fear, ukuzi-underminer and seeing himself as unworthy of good things

Expect erratic behaviour but internal battles and acting cool guy and a mask over the face

God sees me. He will show me signs daily pray Psalm 91

Engage in battle and ask God for deliverance abantu abazi the warfare they are in

The non response and loss of interest is a spiritual war not a physical one

This is a demonic attack

I must allow Z to speak the truth and I must remain loving. Allow him to express his trauma's

Cancel bitteroot and read the Bible daily

Pray Isaiah 43

The Lord has not released me from this relationship

Slowly re-build trust and growth

DAY 03 - 03/09/2023

PSALM 91 PRAYER

Psalm 91

1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a] 2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

Lord I trust you for restoration in our relationship no Z. He will love me consistently more than before. Our love will blossom like an eternal flower in Spring through Christ for the Kingdom,

3 Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence.

Lord please save our relationship from and take us to growth and life-long commitment

4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

Thank you Jesus

5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day,

I will not fear the terror of a break up

6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.

I will not fear the terror of a break up and separation

7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.

A break-up or separation or silent or total divorce will not come near my tent

8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.

Oh Lord save us

9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,” and you make the Most High your dwelling, 10 no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent.

A break-up or separation or silent or total divorce will not come near my tent

11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;

Thank you Jesus

12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

I need help Lord send your Angels

13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

Serpent out of my relationship, future marriage. pack your bags and leave this man is mine

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

Thank you for your deliverance Lord

15 He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.

Father deliver us and honour us

16 With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

Lord show me your salvation. Many relationships have failed

LUKE 15:11-32

The Parable of the Lost Son

11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. 12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ = Uninformed intention So he divided his property between them. (So the old son got mos kwasekuqaleni. Don't be emotional about this verse).

THE FATHER DID NOT MANIPULATE NOR PREVENT THIS PROCESS. HE ALLOWED THE PROCESS

13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country (wanted space) and there squandered his wealth in wild living (the whole intention). 14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country (life happened), and he began to be in need (life created a need). 15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs (there are no good intentions out there). 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything (life creates a need).17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death (when the ego no longer has control but God and reality)! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him (Kwa decider yena the Father never interfered) : Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you (that is when the pile of coals is heaped). 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son (allow life to make them rate themselves) ; make me like one of your hired servants (allow life to make them rate themselves).’ 20 So he got up and went to his father (Xa sele ilife idealer naye liyanyibilika iqwakaza aphe entloko ne kratshi). “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him (ndiphe loo ntliziyo Bawo nyani nyani); he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him. 21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ (repetance) 22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him (ndiphe loo ntliziyo Bawo nyani nyani ka Best robe). Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate (a wedding feast)(help me with the prepared reception, Lord). 24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found. (a wedding feast)(help me with the prepared reception, Lord).’ So they began to celebrate. 25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing (a wedding feast)(help me with the prepared reception, Lord). 26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’ 28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders (there will be people thinking I am making the wrong decision, be patient to explain to them). Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’” (there will be people thinking I am making the wrong decision, be patient to explain to them).

AMEN!!

God's answer is rest and seek clarity - 03/09/2023

Ask for his signs a million times and do not overthink and do not overprocess anything

I don't understand

16 But Ruth replied, “Don’t urge me to leave you or to turn back from you. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God my God.17 Where you die I will die, and there I will be buried. May the Lord deal with me, be it ever so severely, if even death separates you and me.”18 When Naomi realized that Ruth was determined to go with her, she stopped urging her.

TALK TO ME LORD OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN, WHAT HAPPENED TO THE PROMISE?