Hello H.A.P.P.Y July 2024

Phathiswa Moyo
Jul 15, 2024
3 min read

Updated: Aug 5, 2024

'15 July 2024

Dear Diary,

I have not been happy in a long time, like I fought to be happy, get hold of it and slide back down again, be happy, get hold of it and slide back down again. Is there anything as unsustainable happiness. That is how I felt and for the couple of days I asked the Lord for a fast. A thirst for God and it sure came. I remember Brother James saying let he who wants wisdom ask Christ yena opha ngokungenakumbi. Amen. So, I have been seeking God, hungry and thirsty for him. And I instantly found peace and I focused on the fasting I can do which is minimal food and water. I have not been praying sufficiently for years. Ndenze ugqum qhwasha. I think what took me aback eFaith was there, intensity and the simplicity of worship. I love it and I draw strength in the simplicity of God and reachability and the richness and the complexity and multifaced nature of God. The face of God eMakukhanye is simplicity, intensity, fellowship, connectedness and care. Like you walk in there and you touch these things and you learn that God cares. I pray for the future and prosperity of Fountain. I have been heavily anxious and burnt out. Almost chronically burnt out because I was serving the God of busy. I mean I filled my life and every hour with activity. I did not protect my spontaneous intimate connect time with God. This weekend I prayed, deeply prayed for more than 3 hours. I went to intimate prayer in River of life. Thank you, Lord, for placing me there. Sunday, I gave a prayer of thanksgiving at church. I took my family out for a drive at Sasolburg, we saw Sasol refineries. We went to stonehaven with my Family. No money but cherished and treasured times. I slept sweet sleep. That sleep I last had it the day I was admitted kwaShonisani and I did not have hang over. I woke up refreshed. I did not care about the phone and I searched for my Bible which I left in the boot of my 3 weeks. Boka gave me a new testament Bible and I read about how loving our enemies makes them look foolish and their pursuits. I feasted on the word. Searched for my Bible and I washed dishes, listening in the Book of Psalms with high urgency and eagerness in the Spirit. I enjoyed my Fathers Word. I did. I meditated. I even washed blanket and spring cleaned a Bathroom. Slept 5h30 mins and I suddenly had energy. It was revealed in me Sunday that I filled my life with too much activity…..I was having chronic burnt out. A blanket burnout. Like bendithandaza less than 10 words prayer. Like I was tired. Pushing through but tired, stressed and depressed. By the way the Lord answered my 2022 and 2023 shift on total change. Sunday 14 July 2024. Pastor Craig or Veion was teaching about intimacy with God and morning sacrifice of thanksgiving. When I was praying I asked myself is that a true sacrifice I am giving to God? Is that it? Suddenly I worshipped with a new song and I was in tune. I worshipped. I prayed. I read a full Psalms chapter and I …………….wait for it exercised for a full 30 mins. I woke my daughter and I shouted like 5% - 10% compared to 100% and looked how I filled mylife with courses, boyfriends, marriages, too much activity. Too much. By the way people are getting too much breakthroughs from the prayers. Amen.

I took a romantic shower, put on heals and lipstick.

'16 July 2024

Went to fellowship

Worshipped and prayed intensively