Happy gratitude!!

At some point I could not finish my prescribed medication. I must say it was purely out of recklessness and lack of care towards myself. I overworked and did not care for myself no matter how sick I was. I would crawl to work just to please my employers. I think I must have been looking for some validation of some sort or being scared of the worst.

The more I did this, the more my employers became happy. I could not care less about myself as long as we had income month end with my daughter. However my immune system was not tolerating my carelessness. In 2021 I was a little bit sickly to a point I thought I had second Covid but only to find out that it is my body releasing stress. I would allow things such as running back to the office soon after divorce. Now that I am reflecting, I did not have time to mourn the ended marriage. Life continued and I grabbed it by the horns but still neglecting my health and not wearing my mask during Covid times. Engaging in unprotected intimacy even though I was on PREP pills.

03.10.2022 marks the day I finished my antibiotics because I am happy and I care about my healthy self. I was soo thrilled because it is the first time I deliberately cared for myself and finished my meds. Thank you Lord!! Yeeppee!!

On the 17.10.2022 I went to the clinic again and I have lost 3kg's in 2 months. Yeeppee!! My female health results came back and I dogded a bullet. Thank you Lord for woman empowerment conferences. Efficient wisdom Lord. Wisdom to solve my own problems. I was encouraged that condoms are a way to go. I love you Phathi.