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An anxiety attack usually involves a fear of some specific occurrence or problem that could happen. Symptoms include worry, restlessness, and possibly physical symptoms, such as changes in heart rate. Anxiety is different from a panic attack, but it can occur as part of an anxiety or panic disorder. feeling tense, nervous or unable to relax. having a sense of dread, or fearing the worst. feeling like the world is speeding up or slowing down. feeling like other people can see you're anxious and are looking at you.
Is it possible to live anxiety free?
Anxiety is a beast, but it is possible to win the battle without medication. Sometimes, overcoming worry and nervousness is simply a matter of modifying your behavior, thoughts, and lifestyle. You can start with a drug-free approach, and then speak with a doctor if your symptoms don't improve or worsen.
What I discovered about anxiety is groundbreaking. At the heart of all anxiety is a desperate need to CONTROL. What I mean is behind any anxious thought there is a need to control other people's thoughts, reactions, actions etc. To further explain by an example, say someone is anxious about a certain situation, in their mind there is this game going on where the outcome is to be determined by the anxious person. The only way out of this game is to release control of the what the outcome should be. The anxious person will say "ok I will give up control or give up my projections, but what about controlling my own side of the thought game". Well as I discovered the minute you give up your projections and allow external situations(people, events etc) to determine their own outcomes, immediately your own mind starts to rest. Give up control!!!!
GREATEST FEARS
MAN WHO FAILED IN THE BIBLE AND DID NOT KILL THEMSELVES
MY ANXIETY WAR AND FIGHT STRATEGIES - CHECKLIST
Meditation on the Word of God personally and personal prayer
14/03/2024
Did I meditate? Did I pray yesterday? I woke up 4:00 o'clock. I meditated for an hour. And.Meditated for 30 minutes again, and during my lunchtime and I washed. Yesterday I meditated in the evening 3 hours and also. That other day. Tuesday, it was three hours in the evening. Yesterday also, I meditated 3 hours in the evening.
Did I praise God and worship Him
14/03/2024
Did I worship yesterday? Yes, I did. I connected with God in worship. I listened the other day. I was listening in. My spirit was that song that says I'm sorry. I forgot I made it about my agenda called opinion presents. Can opinion presents. Yeah, and. Yesterday I worshipped. I was learning that I never took it. Stress when they say worship your way out. So yesterday I was worshipping and I and I prayed and I connected in the spirit. Even today I worshipped and I connected in spirit. I was searching for songs of people who had an encounter with God and who could articulate it in a song. And I found those people.
Did I get my thoughts renewed in my mind through the truth of the Word daily
11/03/2024
This is my watch checklist the date is 11 March 11 March 2024 anxiety war and fight strategy strategic #1 meditation on the word of God personally I made I made meditation and affirmations on on self love on 1st Corinthians 13 and it's really changing my mind it's really changing my thought it's really changing my thought process Brexit I was buying something at the canteen and I was thinking I don't even know how this was made what was used is it even good for my body because now I love myself of which before it was just food so I end up settling for a beggar because the pear tree look like it's from real meat there's lettuce and the only thing that was unhealthy in the back it was them the bands but compared to the jungle osbahr just didn't know that synthesized things that was there and I can't take the manufacturers word for it that is healthy and and the biscuits the Topaz biscuits that I love so much so yeah I was able to avoid sugar and I remember thinking why you buying a bagger you are on a healthy diet and now I remember that I'm patient with myself does it mean now it beggars everyday you know once the blue moon I will have a beggar I'm patient with myself now I'm not applying myself to try crazy things but when I fall short of of of of when I fall short of the standard I'll be patient with myself.
Applying the Word of God spoken every Sunday
11/03/2024
Applying the word of God spoken every Sunday yeah actually applied what was spoken by the pastor I applied what was spoken by the pastor Sunday which was first Corinthians 13 we have to put our we have to put our names there and it sounds a whole lot different it is a whole lot different
Prayer and fasting to pray away and handover my stress/problems and watch the deliverance of God.
11/03/2024
OK prayer and fasting and hand over my stress to problems actually when I when I woke up I handed over my fears to God I handed over my fears to God master my relationship with thoughts so I had a few ugly nasty thoughts but because I meditated on fence Corinthians 13 about me loving myself and me being loved by God those thoughts feel like like really I didn't even pay attention to them they didn't even have power.
Did I deal well with uncertainty today? Past, current and future?
12/03/2024 - I dealt with it and my stomach knotted because I did not want to deal with it. It was a monster
So today I went for a jog and when I was jogging I remembered of all the things ohh the fears I heard during COVID time I removed I laid it on the altar all the anxieties and their fears I had about me dying at that time without having without practicing teaching or lecturing or getting my PhD end I was not even aware that I was deadly sick I depended on the mercies of God too to be alive I remember my prayer was my daughter is five years old she has been abandoned and neglected by the father and you know my family can you give me life I remember saying to God even if we have nothing tangible in that life as long as we have each other that's all I ask for and I remember you answered through the Holy Spirit and you said you will heal me and I remember you said the intention of that sickness was not for me to die but it was for me to pray for humanity when humanity was put under OK when humanity was being made extinct I remembered your messages God I remembered your message Lord the doctor left me to die within the health system the lot the doctor left me to die the system of health in South Africa failed me but you did not fail me you are our hope mighty God in this country you are our hope you are our hope Lord you are a hook lot we will not harm ourselves not because you are our hope you are my hope my one and only hope I depend and trust on you my strength is in you you sent pastor Diane to support me you sent the nimala family and the founding of abundant life church to support me you sent my mother to support me my mother saw me and she was not scared of me she were not scared of death mighty God she sat with me she sat with me I remember you sent an Angel bless that doctor and her family in all her heart desires bless that doctor in the family it was not happy she was not gonna get paid for seeing me but she's so me nonetheless not getting anything out of it she saw me and she didn't leave me to die and she sent a cyclist and I remember sister suit call you sent the Angel loses nosey to call ohh where your ministers mighty God to call me mighty God to say I must ask for a physiotherapist and my life depended on you my life depended on me receiving the advice from your angels pastor Diane the prayers of the settlement ohh pastor Diane they prayed for me since Nancy was so scared of me she called me every day my uncle cried for me I remember looking at my WhatsApp and saying if my life cover was paid and I worried for Barbara who was just going to start all over with no one in Joburg but early in the morning the other Angel you sent me came after he lost the father he came he didn't allow the fear and the trauma he came back to the trauma and looked at it in the eye and he helped me out of it when I was still contagious he helped me out of it and I could sleep after four days and I just got better I just got better I just got better and my mom pick me up she was not scared of me she stayed with me she was not scared of I've seen your kindness Lord I've seen your goodness mighty God I've seen your goodness systems are allowed to fail systems will fail because their systems but you never fail you never failed because you are God you never fail because you are God in my life right now even if you fail they'll still worship you because you are a God that never fails and you because you are God that loves us it will actually give Vince right you never fail we're allowed to fall short but you got you always have us in our minds thank you father I laid the trauma in that jog and I allowed myself to cry and I laid the trauma in the jaw in the job in my job and in my mind I'm allowing systems to betray us I'm allowing systems to fail with the knowledge that our God will not fail us even in a broken system the Lord will dispatch his angels in that broken system to assist humanity in Jesus name I thank you Lord for the wonderful job and deliverance from anxiety in Jesus mighty name Amen and also in the hospital you sent angels I'll never forget those 4-5 nurses who are helping me who did not have to help us but they helped us during that COVID time you dispersed bless their families bless their families mighty God the angels that go to help us in that COVID world you were there a lot it doesn't matter it doesn't concern me if the system is failing or not what is offer concern is me being close to you and me being comforted in drawing strength in you and delivering every fear I have unto you because you didn't care about the system you care about my life so even if the system was broken for me you made it work so even in the fear of ANC to column there of the government of the ANC failing thinking what is next now I'm gonna try democracy and we're gonna try another method of rulership I learning to understand that that doesn't concern me as long as I pray unto God that Lord open our eyes to see that you are our government that you are our government mighty God that the man made systems are allowed to fail but you are government even in the broken corrupt government of the country you are sending your angels you are dispatching them for us at the time of need and I accept you Jesus as my Lord and savior take over my life I submitted unto you in Jesus mighty name Amen.
Did I deal with unexpected trauma, past, current & future?
12/03/2024 - I dealt with it and my stomach knotted because I did not want to deal with it. It was a monster
So today I went for a jog and when I was jogging I remembered of all the things ohh the fears I heard during COVID time I removed I laid it on the altar all the anxieties and their fears I had about me dying at that time without having without practicing teaching or lecturing or getting my PhD end I was not even aware that I was deadly sick I depended on the mercies of God too to be alive I remember my prayer was my daughter is five years old she has been abandoned and neglected by the father and you know my family can you give me life I remember saying to God even if we have nothing tangible in that life as long as we have each other that's all I ask for and I remember you answered through the Holy Spirit and you said you will heal me and I remember you said the intention of that sickness was not for me to die but it was for me to pray for humanity when humanity was put under OK when humanity was being made extinct I remembered your messages God I remembered your message Lord the doctor left me to die within the health system the lot the doctor left me to die the system of health in South Africa failed me but you did not fail me you are our hope mighty God in this country you are our hope you are our hope Lord you are a hook lot we will not harm ourselves not because you are our hope you are my hope my one and only hope I depend and trust on you my strength is in you you sent pastor Diane to support me you sent the nimala family and the founding of abundant life church to support me you sent my mother to support me my mother saw me and she was not scared of me she were not scared of death mighty God she sat with me she sat with me I remember you sent an Angel bless that doctor and her family in all her heart desires bless that doctor in the family it was not happy she was not gonna get paid for seeing me but she's so me nonetheless not getting anything out of it she saw me and she didn't leave me to die and she sent a cyclist and I remember sister suit call you sent the Angel loses nosey to call ohh where your ministers mighty God to call me mighty God to say I must ask for a physiotherapist and my life depended on you my life depended on me receiving the advice from your angels pastor Diane the prayers of the settlement ohh pastor Diane they prayed for me since Nancy was so scared of me she called me every day my uncle cried for me I remember looking at my WhatsApp and saying if my life cover was paid and I worried for Barbara who was just going to start all over with no one in Joburg but early in the morning the other Angel you sent me came after he lost the father he came he didn't allow the fear and the trauma he came back to the trauma and looked at it in the eye and he helped me out of it when I was still contagious he helped me out of it and I could sleep after four days and I just got better I just got better I just got better and my mom pick me up she was not scared of me she stayed with me she was not scared of I've seen your kindness Lord I've seen your goodness mighty God I've seen your goodness systems are allowed to fail systems will fail because their systems but you never fail you never failed because you are God you never fail because you are God in my life right now even if you fail they'll still worship you because you are a God that never fails and you because you are God that loves us it will actually give Vince right you never fail we're allowed to fall short but you got you always have us in our minds thank you father I laid the trauma in that jog and I allowed myself to cry and I laid the trauma in the jaw in the job in my job and in my mind I'm allowing systems to betray us I'm allowing systems to fail with the knowledge that our God will not fail us even in a broken system the Lord will dispatch his angels in that broken system to assist humanity in Jesus name I thank you Lord for the wonderful job and deliverance from anxiety in Jesus mighty name Amen and also in the hospital you sent angels I'll never forget those 4-5 nurses who are helping me who did not have to help us but they helped us during that COVID time you dispersed bless their families bless their families mighty God the angels that go to help us in that COVID world you were there a lot it doesn't matter it doesn't concern me if the system is failing or not what is offer concern is me being close to you and me being comforted in drawing strength in you and delivering every fear I have unto you because you didn't care about the system you care about my life so even if the system was broken for me you made it work so even in the fear of ANC to column there of the government of the ANC failing thinking what is next now I'm gonna try democracy and we're gonna try another method of rulership I learning to understand that that doesn't concern me as long as I pray unto God that Lord open our eyes to see that you are our government that you are our government mighty God that the man made systems are allowed to fail but you are government even in the broken corrupt government of the country you are sending your angels you are dispatching them for us at the time of need and I accept you Jesus as my Lord and savior take over my life I submitted unto you in Jesus mighty name Amen.
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Master my relationship with my thoughts. That is my best relationship. Anxiety begins from negative thoughts. I need to choose my thoughts carefully.
11/03/2024
Learning to manage my relationship with uncertainty this one I still need to be patient with myself because the student challenged me saying that there's opening balances inventory but instead of being proud and being firm and trusting myself that the Lord has given me the chance to study this over and over again the perfectionist in me I wanted to go for validation according to the textbook and say but this is how it's done which which which I've fallen short really I should have trusted that I've done the right decision to teach the students in class
Learning it is ok to fail, manage my relationship with uncertainty and celebrate and journal it 1. (v. i.) To be wanting; to fall short; to be or become deficient in any measure or degree up to total absence; to cease to be furnished in the usual or expected manner, or to be altogether cut off from supply; to be lacking; as, streams fail; crops fail. 2. (v. i.) To be affected with want; to come short; to lack; to be deficient or unprovided; -- used with of. 3. (v. i.) To fall away; to become diminished; to decline; to decay; to sink. 4. (v. i.) To deteriorate in respect to vigor, activity, resources, etc.; to become weaker; as, a sick man fails. 5. (v. i.) To perish; to die; -- used of a person. 6. (v. i.) To be found wanting with respect to an action or a duty to be performed, a result to be secured, etc.; to miss; not to fulfill expectation. 7. (v. i.) To come short of a result or object aimed at or desired ; to be baffled or frustrated. 8. (v. i.) To err in judgment; to be mistaken. 9. (v. i.) To become unable to meet one's engagements; especially, to be unable to pay one's debts or discharge one's business obligation; to become bankrupt or insolvent. 10. (v. t.) To be wanting to ; to be insufficient for; to disappoint; to desert. 11. (v. t.) To miss of attaining; to lose. 12. (v. i.) Miscarriage; failure; deficiency; fault; -- mostly superseded by failure or failing, except in the phrase without fail. 13. (v. i.) Death; decease.
It is okay to say no to workload and note feel guilty about it
                                                             11/03/2024
Workload and not feel guilty about it Alistair the biggest unplanned have known the most efficient person I know but the biggest unplanned I know wants me to do something the participant we wanted to drop everything and do that for him but in the in the in the list of things I need to do at least as request will be last because it came last so gonna skip the line and don't get me wrong I get Alistair but I'm trying to work with a plan that is that is easy on this beautiful girl on this left loving girl it's OK.
It's okay to fight smart and innovately for obtaining a small workload
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11/03/2024
To fight smart and innovatively for for obtaining a small workload which is the lovely thing I was supposed to submit something gear comment I didn't even know there was not directed me that was directed to to Jacques but what I decided uh but what I decided is I'm going to tell Jack what I'm able to do and what I'm not able to do and to find out that actually that was directed from him it was not even directed to me good shot also I found out from Andre if we have class today and are selling myself short saying this class today and my mom Andrew said no there's no plus so I'm learning a lot till I'm Andre that you know what you don't have to work yourself to the bone if there's no need even if there's a need to try to be smart around it work smartly work hard and smart not not hard and gruesomely OK and plan the heart planned the hard it can be consistent heart plan around the heart and also I've got a I've got almost 200 students who studied my class right now I've got like 130 but I've fought for the 4th marker because I'm not gonna I'm gonna transfer the workload to the other student to the other student marker.
Observe sonship fellowship as it gives me strength
11/03/2024
Observe sonship worship as it gives me strength and grace I'm gonna ohh yes I I I talked to pastor serving as part of the intercessors cause that gives him strength and then she told me about the membership class and she told me also about the but the connect groups for women happening Tuesday and Wednesday and and got the number from so I'm gonna save the numbers and then work on that it gives me strength to hear what my father is saying daily and the prayer group with this gene also gives me strength.
Maintain diet and fitness
11/03/2024
Friday (08.03.2024) I did lots of stretches and back fat Saturday I did 1100 skips to fight off the anxiety attack Sunday I did 300 and then Monday the 11th of March I did 500 and I did stretches so I think I'm gonna go for a run today because there's a sender who can help take care
1. Delegate many tasks smartly
11/03/2024
Asanda such a huge help delegate many tasks smartly of us my brother to take a leadership role in being there to get the land I I did actually let go of control to to to get the land with my mother which is helping a lot because now I have to focus on research and not split myself into two and only go down for Passover seriously give my brother's gonna take care of the brother is going to take care of him anyway and also I'm working on getting my SSI back so that we can share the load of of students that wanna consult I'm not gonna handle load while I'm not gonna die for anything but just saying that I'm not going to be suffering under the load OK stick to my daily planning.
Stick to my daily planning and talk to Ronny once a week'
11/03/2024
running once a week I've not talked to Ronnie today which is very good
Get help endlini and with Fefe. What was I thinking? Shuu Pat
11/03/2024
What was I thinking okay asanda it's one day asander being here I do lots of things but I ask for help from asanda and I can never ever fathom what are they doing to myself not getting help I need help even if it's in a sense open but I need for help I need someone to help me around the house umm but I don't intend to appear she's little says but I will ask help when I need it.
Meditate harmlessly in the mornings
11/03/2024
I meditated harmlessly using the word of God which is still still blessing me even now
Growing slowly but consistently and not be aggressive in growth but grow steadily surely
11/03/2024
I've decided to grow slowly but consistently and not to be aggressive in growth but to grow slowly surely consistently OK and I'm gonna see which project I tackle once a month rather than having hundred projects once a month.
Daily self-care, self-love and being gently on myself
11/03/2024
OK daily self-care self love and being gentle on myself I did it I exercised I meditated I put on lipstick I wore the dress I wanted I wore the high heels I wanted I combed my hair my daughter helped me to comb my hair and I was gentle with myself today I missed often negative thoughts which I blocked
Listen to overcomers testimonies one a week on Youtube and blogs and study this monster and kill it on the head
11/03/2024
Listen to overcomers testimonies once a week and the blogs on how to kill the monster anxiety on its head saying it is Goliath I've done that today I did lots of them yesterday
Avoid unplanned additional workload by all means even personal invites
11/03/2024
Avoid unplanned it doesn't work load by all means even by personal even in in a personal level right now I've made us request last alistair's request last in the list then we can't connect and fun I don't work weekends I don't start at weekends I connect with myself I connect with my family I connect with my fitness I meditate I meditate on the word of God
Plan weekend connect and fun. I do not work weekends
11/03/2024
I do not do work weekends have longer weekdays but weekends are to myself ask help all the time learning to ask help of the all the time and I must say it felt like I'm losing control I even had that gut that that that bad pain around my stomach felt like I was losing control I'm fine now not take quick people dump on me and plant Alistair yeah to grow slowly but steadily because it's OK it's part of the trusting in the Lord it's part of being patient
Ask for help all the time
11/03/2024
Asanda, Oso
Practice do not worry daily because everyday there is an opportunity not to worry
Practice do not be anxious because everyday there is an opportunity not to be anxious
11/03/2024
Today worry I there were thoughts but I kicked them did I become anxious yes there were thoughts but I kicked them in the **** my affirmation the Lord healed me from anxiety 04 August 2023 and that's not a lie and he confirmed it 20 August 2023 so I need to be consistent in working in my daily healing Amen
Stay connected with friends heart to heart and family, anxiety is isolating = Ningadebeseli ukuhlanganyela njengoba abanye benu benza
Don't always assume the worst will happen
Did I run away from someone loving and bracing today? What is wrong with good treatment? Am I not worthy?
Treat myself as someone I love?
Did I go back to praying about it before I google it?
Did I listen to the Spirit about it?
Don't sensor what I do or say
Don't ever entertain the thought of am I losing my mind?
Did I become an independent thinker
Assertive is a skill. Did I practise that today
Was I self critical and harsh with myself today?
Did I spend time with people who love me today?
Is there an external trigger such as personal stress, work stress and emotions?
Take med's if it stay longer, it is reckless if ukuphethe ixesha elide but awuyinaki
Did I spend time with people who care about me who give me better treatment?
Did I speak/voice out my ideas
Did I feel, exploited and unassertive or taken advantage off?
Did I ask for help
Do not fear the next one
Did I see the goodness of God in the Land of the living?
Did Phathiswa hear more than enough good words today?
Did Phathiswa remember the unfailing kindness of God today?
He gave me 2nd life when I was running out of life
So today I went for a jog and when I was jogging I remembered of all the things ohh the fears I heard during COVID time I removed I laid it on the altar all the anxieties and their fears I had about me dying at that time without having without practicing teaching or lecturing or getting my PhD end I was not even aware that I was deadly sick I depended on the mercies of God too to be alive I remember my prayer was my daughter is five years old she has been abandoned and neglected by the father and you know my family can you give me life I remember saying to God even if we have nothing tangible in that life as long as we have each other that's all I ask for and I remember you answered through the Holy Spirit and you said you will heal me and I remember you said the intention of that sickness was not for me to die but it was for me to pray for humanity when humanity was put under OK when humanity was being made extinct I remembered your messages God I remembered your message Lord the doctor left me to die within the health system the lot the doctor left me to die the system of health in South Africa failed me but you did not fail me you are our hope mighty God in this country you are our hope you are our hope Lord you are a hook lot we will not harm ourselves not because you are our hope you are my hope my one and only hope I depend and trust on you my strength is in you you sent pastor Diane to support me you sent the nimala family and the founding of abundant life church to support me you sent my mother to support me my mother saw me and she was not scared of me she were not scared of death mighty God she sat with me she sat with me I remember you sent an Angel bless that doctor and her family in all her heart desires bless that doctor in the family it was not happy she was not gonna get paid for seeing me but she's so me nonetheless not getting anything out of it she saw me and she didn't leave me to die and she sent a cyclist and I remember sister suit call you sent the Angel loses nosey to call ohh where your ministers mighty God to call me mighty God to say I must ask for a physiotherapist and my life depended on you my life depended on me receiving the advice from your angels pastor Diane the prayers of the settlement ohh pastor Diane they prayed for me since Nancy was so scared of me she called me every day my uncle cried for me I remember looking at my WhatsApp and saying if my life cover was paid and I worried for Barbara who was just going to start all over with no one in Joburg but early in the morning the other Angel you sent me came after he lost the father he came he didn't allow the fear and the trauma he came back to the trauma and looked at it in the eye and he helped me out of it when I was still contagious he helped me out of it and I could sleep after four days and I just got better I just got better I just got better and my mom pick me up she was not scared of me she stayed with me she was not scared of I've seen your kindness Lord I've seen your goodness mighty God I've seen your goodness systems are allowed to fail systems will fail because their systems but you never fail you never failed because you are God you never fail because you are God in my life right now even if you fail they'll still worship you because you are a God that never fails and you because you are God that loves us it will actually give Vince right you never fail we're allowed to fall short but you got you always have us in our minds thank you father I laid the trauma in that jog and I allowed myself to cry and I laid the trauma in the jaw in the job in my job and in my mind I'm allowing systems to betray us I'm allowing systems to fail with the knowledge that our God will not fail us even in a broken system the Lord will dispatch his angels in that broken system to assist humanity in Jesus name I thank you Lord for the wonderful job and deliverance from anxiety in Jesus mighty name Amen and also in the hospital you sent angels I'll never forget those 4-5 nurses who are helping me who did not have to help us but they helped us during that COVID time you dispersed bless their families bless their families mighty God the angels that go to help us in that COVID world you were there a lot it doesn't matter it doesn't concern me if the system is failing or not what is offer concern is me being close to you and me being comforted in drawing strength in you and delivering every fear I have unto you because you didn't care about the system you care about my life so even if the system was broken for me you made it work so even in the fear of ANC to column there of the government of the ANC failing thinking what is next now I'm gonna try democracy and we're gonna try another method of rulership I learning to understand that that doesn't concern me as long as I pray unto God that Lord open our eyes to see that you are our government that you are our government mighty God that the man made systems are allowed to fail but you are government even in the broken corrupt government of the country you are sending your angels you are dispatching them for us at the time of need and I accept you Jesus as my Lord and savior take over my life I submitted unto you in Jesus mighty name Amen.
Did Phathiswa see the unfailing kindness sent by her Father God today?
He gave me 2nd life when I was running out of life. He gave a chance to raise my daughter
He gave me 2nd life when I was running out of life
So today I went for a jog and when I was jogging I remembered of all the things ohh the fears I heard during COVID time I removed I laid it on the altar all the anxieties and their fears I had about me dying at that time without having without practicing teaching or lecturing or getting my PhD end I was not even aware that I was deadly sick I depended on the mercies of God too to be alive I remember my prayer was my daughter is five years old she has been abandoned and neglected by the father and you know my family can you give me life I remember saying to God even if we have nothing tangible in that life as long as we have each other that's all I ask for and I remember you answered through the Holy Spirit and you said you will heal me and I remember you said the intention of that sickness was not for me to die but it was for me to pray for humanity when humanity was put under OK when humanity was being made extinct I remembered your messages God I remembered your message Lord the doctor left me to die within the health system the lot the doctor left me to die the system of health in South Africa failed me but you did not fail me you are our hope mighty God in this country you are our hope you are our hope Lord you are a hook lot we will not harm ourselves not because you are our hope you are my hope my one and only hope I depend and trust on you my strength is in you you sent pastor Diane to support me you sent the nimala family and the founding of abundant life church to support me you sent my mother to support me my mother saw me and she was not scared of me she were not scared of death mighty God she sat with me she sat with me I remember you sent an Angel bless that doctor and her family in all her heart desires bless that doctor in the family it was not happy she was not gonna get paid for seeing me but she's so me nonetheless not getting anything out of it she saw me and she didn't leave me to die and she sent a cyclist and I remember sister suit call you sent the Angel loses nosey to call ohh where your ministers mighty God to call me mighty God to say I must ask for a physiotherapist and my life depended on you my life depended on me receiving the advice from your angels pastor Diane the prayers of the settlement ohh pastor Diane they prayed for me since Nancy was so scared of me she called me every day my uncle cried for me I remember looking at my WhatsApp and saying if my life cover was paid and I worried for Barbara who was just going to start all over with no one in Joburg but early in the morning the other Angel you sent me came after he lost the father he came he didn't allow the fear and the trauma he came back to the trauma and looked at it in the eye and he helped me out of it when I was still contagious he helped me out of it and I could sleep after four days and I just got better I just got better I just got better and my mom pick me up she was not scared of me she stayed with me she was not scared of I've seen your kindness Lord I've seen your goodness mighty God I've seen your goodness systems are allowed to fail systems will fail because their systems but you never fail you never failed because you are God you never fail because you are God in my life right now even if you fail they'll still worship you because you are a God that never fails and you because you are God that loves us it will actually give Vince right you never fail we're allowed to fall short but you got you always have us in our minds thank you father I laid the trauma in that jog and I allowed myself to cry and I laid the trauma in the jaw in the job in my job and in my mind I'm allowing systems to betray us I'm allowing systems to fail with the knowledge that our God will not fail us even in a broken system the Lord will dispatch his angels in that broken system to assist humanity in Jesus name I thank you Lord for the wonderful job and deliverance from anxiety in Jesus mighty name Amen and also in the hospital you sent angels I'll never forget those 4-5 nurses who are helping me who did not have to help us but they helped us during that COVID time you dispersed bless their families bless their families mighty God the angels that go to help us in that COVID world you were there a lot it doesn't matter it doesn't concern me if the system is failing or not what is offer concern is me being close to you and me being comforted in drawing strength in you and delivering every fear I have unto you because you didn't care about the system you care about my life so even if the system was broken for me you made it work so even in the fear of ANC to column there of the government of the ANC failing thinking what is next now I'm gonna try democracy and we're gonna try another method of rulership I learning to understand that that doesn't concern me as long as I pray unto God that Lord open our eyes to see that you are our government that you are our government mighty God that the man made systems are allowed to fail but you are government even in the broken corrupt government of the country you are sending your angels you are dispatching them for us at the time of need and I accept you Jesus as my Lord and savior take over my life I submitted unto you in Jesus mighty name Amen.
Did Phathiswa see the wonders of God’s unfailing love sent by her Father God today?
12/03/2024
Did I see the wonders of God today yes I woke up with breath in my lungs with my brain intact even though I'm fighting the war of over anxiety but I woke up today and I was presented with opportunity of life which it's only God who gives that opportunity of life so the 12th of March I'm presented with opportunity of life and I'm excited about my upcoming birthday like all my lifelong birthdays I'm excited about them I will never give the enemy a foothold in my heart I saw God's provision today by allowing asunder to come and stay with us and for the past two days she's been very helpful when I was Joe when I was joking I saw the goodness of the Lord I think we get used to God's faithfulness and goodness that one does not recognize it we often looking for what we have done may I be delivered from pride Lord we we are a generation that does not uplift God and his wonders and I repent because as a minute ago I was part of that generation that's looking to acquire praise Jesus for oneself not praise for God not praise unto our God as in all today of how the Lord sent angels when I was suffering with COVID suddenly I think are so caught up in my goals so caught up in my tasks life is meaningful with you Lord I I didn't even stop to pay attention to the help that the Lord sent my way I'm reminded of the security guard the Lord planted at Florida hospital I knew I had ohh my heart chamber luthic ohh my heart softened unto God I repent from a hard heart Lord from your heart mind and your heart spirit that security guard help me when the system was saying he must not help I could have died in the car I was alone could have died in the car even in that alone time the Lord gave me strategies of dropping myself at flora when I was denied by the health system at Garden City I'm I'm David mighty God I'm I'm I'm David today when I realize your goodness that says bless the Lord Oh my soul and forget not his benefits he who delivers you from sin he who delivers you from death and crowns you with glory I'm I'm I'm reminded of David that I lift up my eyes up to the hill where my help comes from my help comes from the Lord who made heaven and earth he will not suffer thy foot their foot to be moved he doesn't slumber nor sleep they keep her off Israel does not live on asleep I repent Lord from having a rebellious heart toward you you didn't deserve it Lord I repent cheeses a man and also my daughter is alive my daughter is healthy my daughter is protected I will not take advantage of this day for granted of the goodness of the Lord even after two cars have been stolen the Lord is exceedingly exceedingly gracious in musical towards me those are objects that can be purchased at any point in this lifetime but life cannot be purchased advice seeing the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living father was destined to die before Beth but you sent angels Lord that gynecologist who said come when I didn't even have money he said come you'll pay me after giving birth have I been faithful in failing him no the offices moved of which I should repent and find the opposites and and and pay him when I was when was left by husband Lord you sent an Angel Presley just serve me send an Angel or Presley to serve me you sent gonna nanny these are the people that they just heard you being far from you they just had you you you send apostolate Newman mama founded to serve Sylvia mutton and you sent a plethora of angels just who am I God do you have a hard heart of his stone toward you release all the traumas Rd. Remember Connie mighty God she only had 300 and she borrowed me a lot to buy milk for my daughter how do I even get the I decided to charge him you sent to kenzan she does not even know you but in that season she saved me Papa saved me parties were returning to the Lord with your mind with your heart with your spirit all this anxiety will go away I believe it when I was doing masters you sent my brother to serve me in the hospital you sent my brother to save me and my daughter was taken to school could have lost to Fairfield that doctor had an opportunity to be reckless but he chose not to with the nurses I didn't opportune time I had medical aid when Bruce did not care Lord he had nothing close to nothing of affection close to nothing but you said you angels am i better that am I beta that I'm not blessed with your husband yet from today I release that bitterness because you have been my husband you have been the one consistent in sending love yet I'm caught up in my own thoughts in my own mind making my own idols yes Lord yes Lord ohh you have served me Jesus you you you you want certain Angel timberland to buy furfest cake he was far from you Lord far from you far from you he didn't know you but but you send him Lord to be there for my daughter and you used him to usher me into a family that's genuinely loving to a family that's genuinely present do the family that loves and cares for me more than my own family have you not been good Lord you have been good and I repent from my hard heart what happened from my hard heart put my hope in you know and I rejoice in you even when I was neglected by husband is certain Angel Uber baga Obama got junior you sent juniors father to take me to hospital took me to juniors father he didn't have to he was working 24 hours just to afford rent and food at home but repent from this generation that that doesn't know God look I know you and I repent from phone learning from my falling ohh God let's hope that it's OK it's OK I am blessed I am literally blessed you know you sent my mother an Angel to organize clothes for me second hand clothes goods shared a granddaughter and she was so so happy I pray you you you keep my mother strong free from stroke and I believe that you're the one delivering not I know you're the one delivering me from anxieties and I believe that I pray that you keep my mother safe from all from all ham she is loving she is present not I thank you in Jesus name on me Lord when my father when my father denied me and my grandmother had absolute poverty absolutely no support from anyone to raise me but she said she refused to give me away she refused after agreeing she refused to give me away saying it was as if she threw me away what manner of love is this why do I go on crying ohh God I I repent from your rebellious heart and she says she couldn't she trusted you and you're blessed my uncle the job not knowing God but she but he bought his food and saved us Paris food and service put his foot in septus not even knowing you and we grew by you grace and your hand I have a mighty God we're going to grow again not by might not by power but by your spirit we're going to grow I repent from thinking that it takes might when all the time it took you spirit for us to see the other day for us to Excellency your goodness the other day and fixed didn't you Lord mentally not allowing my mind to wander I'm fixed in you send to advocate for my labourer when my mom failed but you send an Angel muffins Omar listen an Angel my grandmother to sit and love me you did a 13th birthday you sent an Angel my grandmother to do my 13th birthday I went through school you gave my grandmother then I used my aunt as an Angel Lord you not even knowing you're not even loving you but you used her when it comes to the righteous he even asked the enemies to do them good ohh Jesus ohh Jesus how how could I how could I walk away from you mentally how could I walk away from you emotionally you used human as I said if I the woman of her heart heart but you gave me favor with Thomas who gave me favor with the uncle Lord this is a person born with no one to take care of her from day one and you created a conducive environment for us to go through tertiary and you still use demand meters again woman of a hard heart to assist me to get employment and go and make copies Lord bless her bless all these angels of mentioned for allowing themselves to be used to you you're still going to do marvelous things how can we how can we limit you as God is is is there anything impossible for you yes the systems can fail but our hope is in you because nothing is impossible with you when I lost my grandmother you sentence is not here but to represent Obama when I came out of depression hospital you sentence signal timber to give me laugh bless your Angel bless your angels is not humble wow you've always been there always been there how can my eyes be closed I forgive myself for my eyes being closed it's just not my way to my to God of senior exceeding love a perfect stranger blessing me with land in storage perfect total stranger buying my building materials ohh God baby shoes for my child paying shoes for my child when I was taking a train Jesus summer Linda not recording my lift days plus that Angel to correct my left eyes up in there it's a smart but like listening to me listening to me since you were listening to me it's just no still listening to me I've seen you God I've seen you today not let you I moved in without a deposit without even paying rent in Bedford park he used your Angel Mattingly doesn't even know God to serve me so I repent from the spirit of despair because you send your angels to keep our food from falling I found today asking you Holy Spirit and I will not try to fit in at the expense of the gospel it's OK Lord to be caught up in your presence it's OK not to be married the Lord is my All in all I mean my daughter was taken in soap on you used your Angel 02 and my daughter was taken with 2018 documents and you already prepared an Angel mataki to receive my daughter I don't even want a Sunday here but mighty God you brought a Sunday anyway and Lord I welcome her I receive her she's a blessing and may I be the Angel you want to use in her life you know you send your Angel pasta pull me to to write signals for me when I was not sick when is accused by my employers nonetheless had to take care of my daughter when I was abused at home writing honors I forgive everything that has happened nothing can separate us from the love of God this is only typing my daughter because it's when I only had a Toyota test ohh when I had a beautiful car ohh Emily buying me shoes when I woke up we've always this is into giving me a place to stay without a deposit taking me to the train station I look up unto you you always send your Angel ahead you sent Sharon who could have lied and abused me Lord who could have lied to children and abused me and made me stay in the wrong marriage but she liberated me when I had total low self esteem she liberated me she liberated me mazo palati who who doesn't even know you doesn't even know you she she she negotiated for me to have extra classes I forgive the offenses of your angels Lord you use even a wicked person to bless the righteous I have mileage in here I literally have mileage you even used God you use that young man that was highly intoxicated in drugs when he was warning me about my car being stolen when have you not been good even that hard trustee Eddie Mandy hearts you used him ohh God you used the system with your Angel to give me a deposit giving me a deposit of the flat to give me a deposit of the flare demanded Mandy heights who can borrow the person 12,000 this diagonal she had to build rooms she postponed that project to help you when I didn't qualify for a job because I had a huge debt slot systematically when I was abused forced to take my sister to university when my mother was just while living in depression please keep her Lord till 97 in perfect health you used both your Angel doesn't even go to church used your Angel to to to to to bend the rules and open for me and I got employment at imperial when he was abused by Bruce of which I forgive when I didn't even have money to buy lunch being this abused child financially you just give me jobs left right and center ohh Jesus you said well trample over scorpions and they won't bite us will trample over snakes and they won't bite us your world needs your peace today when I didn't qualify for a bond you gave me a bond used your Angel to get me the bond thank you my teachers is a manhe Lord’s compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience Father God has given me today?
Did Phathiswa see the kindness and restoration of her Father God today?
Did Phathiswa see the wonders of God’s unfailing love sent by her Father God today?
THE LORD HEALED FROM ANXIETY 04.08.2023 AND CONFIRMED IT 20.08.2023. I NEED TO CONSISTENT TO WALKING IN MY DAILY HEALING.
People who suffered from depression, burnout and anxiety and overcame
Vee - intelligent, overachiever at a young age, super bright,unheard in the market place (family), abused
Alistair - intelligent, overachiever at a young age, super bright, innovator, unheard in the market place and undermined, abused
Namhla - intelligent, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the market place and undermined, abused
Ntokozo - intelligent, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the market/family place and undermined, abused,overachiever at a young age, - Fights back with sports
Osinda - intelligent, not accepting learning difficulties, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Phathiswa - intelligent, overachiever at a young age, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator,, abused a lot
Khadzi - intelligent, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the market place (family) and undermined, abused
Mbongeni Sokhuphe - intelligent, not accepting parts of his limitations, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Noyoyo - intelligent, not accepting divorce and downgrade, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Nceba - intelligent, soft, never loved, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Mthetho - intelligent, soft, never loved, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Botwe - intelligent, soft, never loved, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the marketplace at their birth family
Mbali - intelligent, soft, never loved, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the marketplace and at their birth family
Luster - intelligent, warm, soft, not accepting divorce and downgrade, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Babes Ka Mdingwa - intelligent, warm, soft, not career setback, warm, very loving, family orientated, innovator, caring, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
Musandiwa - intelligent, warm, soft, not accepting divorce and downgrade, perfectionists, warm, loving, family orientated, super bright, innovator, unheard in the family place and undermined, abused
God's healing works
Meditation on the word of God 2 weeks
22/03/2024 Thoughts under control and I enjoyed the 5 km jog
The Lord healed deep deep deep inside. That broken inferior woman. I saw her dark self holding a rope loosely as if she is no longer harm to herself and I was scared. It's as if a demon of hurt and a broken spirit came out of me. The word of God healed me.